Where do you start when you're trying to explain how much of your life has been completely centred around food? Food for me was never just about being hungry physically, even though I justified that it was. As a child, food was a treat, a comfort and a sedative. Believe you me I tried every diet in the book. As soon as I started to eat semi normally I began to put on the weight I had lost, and more! Genetically my family lean heavily towards the large size!
Having a history of depression, diabetes, angina, knee and hip replacements, asthma, arthritis, back problems; you name it we seemed to have it! After 14 years divorced with 2 young children and constantly insulating my body so that I felt protected from everything but myself, I had had enough. Genetically I could see my life mapped out and having met a man who I really wanted to live life to the full with, I was scared of missing out. Luckily he did not care about my size, just the fact that I was so unhappy. I discounted surgery because it was such a huge financial investment, but eventually took the plunge.
My only real regret now, is that I did not do it sooner. I have so much more energy and lust for life. My confidence is second to none and I do not feel deprived in any way. I feel that I have shed my skin so to speak, and the real me is constantly emerging.